Countdown - 2 weeks before Delivery

Panting…..as if I had run 100 metres…..:(

Actually not!

Just that, with 2 weeks countdown to my delivery, nothing is easy…walking, breathing, sleeping, talking…but eating is GREAT!!! Hahahhah….never once lost my appetite.

I wanted to talk about my pregnancy but what can I talk about this pregnancy?

Well, for a start, throughout my 2^nd pregnancy, I have been most lazy. Always thinking of sleeping and eating….No time even to blog in all that I have felt. Is it the age? Is it I’m having a different baby and with different gender? Do these all affect how I feel and experience this time round? Really….I don’t know..Doctors can’t explain either. Same philosophy….like everyone is unique and individual in their own way, so is every pregnancy.

2) Yes, I wanted to make known to all ladies that, it is not the hormone that spoils the pregnant lady’s mood. It’s the “Hubby”. Really!!

What I felt now is simply that no matter what the situation is, it is always the “Hubby” who aggravates the pregnant lady the most. Even if the first child is being a rascal (yet still cute), the finger is pointing directly at the “Hubby”. Everything that the “Hubby” does is just not good enough. For my case, he can be sitting in the wrong chair, which I claimed is MY CHAIR when I’m pregnant or his “slumber-ness” in getting the kid ready for school or goes to bed just makes me wants to tear my hair off. The last pregnancy, he bought nasi lemak without adding extra stuffs that I usually like. There goes my mood and my day……The situation was so bad that he had to call an arbitrator (my sister) to listen to our case. Come to this day, my sister always think it is the craziest thing ever and we can laugh about it…but then again, this 2^nd pregnancy….I just have to make some drama again…In my mind, I know it is mean of me to act this way but I just wanted to do it. I just want to have my way no matter what. Strange what pregnancy can do to a woman!! **Sigh…

Anyway, I am not really that bad. I can still come to my senses. Just that small things which betrayed my image of perfection agitates me to the extreme when I’m pregnant. Yes, with the “Hubby” 's unwanted help too…J

3)  In this pregnancy, I have to make 2 major decisions in my life. The first one is a discreet matter which I don’t feel I want to disclose for the moment and the 2^nd one is to have C-sect instead of trying for normal/natural birth.  I was in a dilemma when I was told by the doctor should I want to try for natural birth, I need to do X-ray to estimate on my pelvic bone spacing and baby’s head. The reason being that the last pregnancy, my cervix cannot dilate and I need to have C-sect. With such case happening before, doctor said it is most likely to happen again. So if I try for natural now and I do not want to X-ray, the risk of delivering is higher and can bring danger to both mother and baby. When I heard the word “Risk”, I was aghast. My mind also went blank for sometime. I wasn’t sure what is the right thing to do anymore. Thought hard on the matter, asked friends’ and family’s opinions and advice. Think again….Finally after using so much of grey cells and what my heart feels, I believe I have made the most sensible decision. Go for the C-sect!! Then suddenly the doctor throws another question at me. Elective or emergency? Huh!! What!! Never in my mind, I have thought about elective, meaning selecting a date to do the C-sect!! As like before, the Doctor used the word “Risk” again….Aiyo….Elective is less risky then emergency, so he said. Yeah, I know, I know….I was thinking if I can’t go for natural birth, at least, I can wait until I feel the labour symptoms and do the C-sect..It will be more natural that way instead of selecting date for baby to come to this world…Oh, come on!!! Another dilemma….Sigh….Think, think, think again… A wise person told me, even if I chose to have elective C-sect, it does not make me a bad mom. I had all the reasons to do it this way and it is the best thing to do. It hit me hard!! Yeah, I should know what is best for me and my baby. Why take higher risk when I can opt not to!! Just because of my own perception on going natural means I’m a better mom….So stupid!! I’m wiser now. Well, all moms-to- be, please bear this in mind….

Overall, I do have a good pregnancy. There are some emotional situations in between 1^st and 2^nd Trimester, but I managed to overcome all that.

Praying hard for a safe and sound delivery and welcoming a healthy baby is all I have in mind now. Any other matters will have to wait in line.

So wish me well, ok!